I enjoy writing stories and poems as they just keep poping up in my head.
Writing makes me feel at ease.
On this page I am going to give you some appetizers of my poetry collection.
Hope you will enjoy it.

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(2010-09-25)

Sometimes

Sometimes the world looks out for you,
but sometimes it won't.

sometimes people see what you need,
but sometimes they don't.

sometimes someone will hold out a hand,
but 'you' have to see it.

Sometimes you need time to see what's needed,
but sometimes that is not all.

Sometimes you hear 'time heals all wounds',
but time can't heal it all.

Sometimes a book will fill you with thoughts,
but sometimes you fall asleep.

Sometimes when you want to deny, it might be good,
but it might make things worse.

Sometimes others believe you are happy smiling,
but inside you are falling apart.

Sometimes you think it's rain that's falling,
but than realize it's tears.

Sometimes you feel all alone in the world,
but in reality you are not.

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(2010-04-05)

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(2010-01-30)

When someone dies

Someone dies, you lose someone.
One will say it's horrible.
Another, that's life.
Time goes forward,
whether you like it or not
life leads to death, death leads to life.
It's a circle that cannot be broken.
Everything will be alright in the end.
But it might not be in the way you want it to.
Off course you don't want to loose anyone.
Off course you'd rather have them alive.
But to what price?
Knowing that the person would suffer
Suffer while being alive.
that makes it easier to accept, that the person is gone.
Perhaps to another place.
Perhaps to nothingness.
Something that is up to oneself,
to choose what is to be believed.

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(2009-11-22)

How I feel

I feel like an assistant.
I feel like a slave.
For all the heavyness that lies ahead.
I have been ordered here.
I have been ordered there.
For all that there is to be everywhere.
My dad came here,
to stay for a while
I did my best to follow his way.
He is telling me what to do.
He is telling me what to say.
I do my best to do hes way.
He repairs some stuff,
he prepairs some food.
He helps out all around the house.
For the first time with sadness,
I watch him leave the house.

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(2009-11-14)

Disapearance

I'm keeping up a face,
for others to see.
They belive I am happy,
i'm falling apart.
The reality stroke me,
like a hammer on a glass.
I though I could make him happy.
I though I could change his mind.
I though I could make him like his life.
To open his eyes and see,
see what is there.
I though I could do something,
but I'm as helpless as a fly in the storm.
As helpless as an insect caught in the webb.

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(2009-11-09)

Suicide

If you save someones life.
Makes sure that the person has other people near,
people who truly cares.
If that someone after almost half a year does what you tried to prevent.
The person commiting suicide.
After all the effort to keep the person alive.
Was the time spend only a waste of time?
Was the time spend only to do something wrong?
Was the time spend only to postpone something inevitable?
Was the time spend only to make the person suffer longer?
Was it wrong to try to save the persons life?

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This poem is not one of my best once I just wrote it anyway (2009-02-18)

Light and Darkness

From darkness I come,
in darkness I live.
Darkness is my friend my ally my home.
For years and years darkness is what I've known.
A stream of light,
A stream of hope.
Light that goes through friends and foes.
In my heart and soul light is flowing through.

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written 2009-01-15

When I am

when I am scared, give me a hug
when I am scared, don't lift me up
pat me on my back, pat me on my head
say that it's gonna be okey

when I am sad, give me a hug
when I am sad, give me a kiss
pat me on my back, pat me on my head
say that it's gonna be okey

when I am angry, just leave me alone
when I am angry, just give me some time
don't follow me around, don't force me to stay
I say it's gonna be okey

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This is also something I came up with while talking to someone over msn (2008-10-20)

Days I like

I like days warm enough,
to sit on the green grass and have a cup of tea
I like days with snow,
to throw in a ball,to ski and to roll down a hill
days with friends,
days with fun
days with no evilness around

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Wrote this (2008-09-29) while talking to a friend

What if ...

what if you find a friend
what if this friend is really nice
what if you discover a secret
what if this secret is about your friend
what if the secret is of no good
what if you have just been used
what if get past this and than ...
what if it happens again
what would you do?

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This is a poem I wrote the autumn 2008

Lovely guy

with flowers high
I reach the sky
to see this lovely guy

in my hopes
and in my dreams
kisses are like cream

in my head
and in my soul
I am beyond control

to come for me
to do it spree
we always staying free

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Feelings is a poem I wrote not long after a certain person I though I could trust did something realy bad towards me.

Feelings.

there are feelings, that I do not understand.
there are feelings, that I do not have.
there is different kinds of sadness,
there is different kinds of fear.
some kinds of sadness, gives you allot of strength.
and some kinds of sadness, makes you loose all strength
the same it is with fear
some gives and some takes your strength,
and some even takes your breath away.
but when it comes to love,
there is only one I do understand.
there is only one I do have.
I am one who do not understand,
the feeling of love for a special one.
when they talk about love, I am outside.
that conversation is not one of mine.
but they talk about it all the time.
what am I to do, I am not one of them
what am I to do, I do not understand.
that kind of love is unknown for me.
that special kind of love.
that love you feel for a special one.
I do not know, I do not understand.
I guess I do not believe in love for a special one.
Have I ever felt it?
will I ever?
will I ever understand?
that kind of love for a special one.
my heart is searching but my mind has given up.
my heart believes but my mind does not.
yet I do have feelings for those who are close
I care what happens to them
I feel sorrow when they are gone
or when I am about to loose them
that there are also peoples, that I need to protect
not only for them, but also for my own
I can feel sadness, and I can feel fear.
But the feeling of love,
will I ever know?